Drained

I have so many dreams and aspirations. I know what I want out of life. I know how I want everything to pan out. But I seem to be stuck in this rut. The devil is pulling me back. Everytime I take a few steps forward, he pulls me 20 steps back. Back into this hell. My hell. How do I break out of this cycle? I feel my dreams slipping away from me. Day by day. Hour by hour. Minute by minute. I can feel my soul cracking. My spirits drained. I'm going under awfully fast. I can swim, but I'm not fighting the currents anymore. I'm slowly being pulled out to sea. No lifeguard in sight. I'm watching the shore get further and further away as I continue to drift away with the water. I'm scared. What happens when I lose sight of land?